A change of mind...

In the midst of all the wedding planning I've kind of got stressed out. I just want it to all go away and just show up and the day be magical. However, I know this will not be the case.  I always had thought that planning a wedding would be blissful and exciting; that it would be the only thing in the world I would be thinking about. Wow was my interpretation wrong. I find myself wanting the wedding to just go away. I sometimes feel like I’m sinking in everything else like school, keeping up the house, other distractions and adding the wedding on top of that just turns the sinking into drowning.  This past weekend thats all I could think about was my own self pity. 

Today I talked to my Grandma Hight, she is probably one of the wisest women and someone who I hold the upmost respect for.  Grandma has always been an amazing Godly example of who I've wanted to be as a woman.  When I called her today, she didn't fail me. Grandma gave me so many words of wisdom. She told me that God has a plan, he WILL provide, and if we are faithful to him all the rest will fall in line. This isn't the first time I've heard these words, but they were just so good to hear and be reassured that I serve an amazing God. God cares about everything, even the little details of the wedding that drive me crazy. God is the calmer of the storms, and the storm inside me as well. 

Grandma also reminded me that without God Matt and I's marriage will be nothing. This is so true.  I firmly believe that even now we need to start putting God before everything. We need to seek him first in everything we do, even our wedding plans.  

This blog may sound like I'm preaching, but I am. I'm preaching to myself and Matt. I pray that someday when we look back on this blog that the words said here will be reigning true in our life’s then. 

 

Grandma Hight :)